Grumph... So here it is, the eve of Christmas and all through the house as we got up this morning knowing what we have to do to get ready for the big holiday.. Supposed to snow?? Is it yet?? Not yet?? But they say by tonight it will snow a little bit.. A white Christmas, and to think a month ago I was looking at the weather and it was showing a better chance at having a bar-b-que for Christmas than snow.. There have been years where we could be outside in our shirt sleeves.. The year we got a horse shoe pitching set, we actually spent that Christmas playing outside in relative nice weather.. The year we got sleds, I can't remember the weather that day but more than likely we got snow shortly after, because back then it did snow here in the winter/early spring.. Those were the days..
Then this year.. How did it all start this year?? Well rather than say it.. The way last year ended wasn't great but it was... alright.. Then shortly into this year everything changed, very much so.. It was an odd thing to hear.. Tabitha was pregnant.. Well that was surely something to celebrate?? and then shortly after that news it became even bigger... TWINS... And then.. Well there was that "funnel" effect as things went from here to there as time moved along and the 11th of August approached.. What was so big about that day?? Nothing really.. Just Jordan getting married..and the twins might be born about then as well..AND EVERYTHING GETS HUGE as things like this happen. Having the babies was big enough.. And on July 20 they were born, then a couple weeks later Jordan gets married.. Then a couple weeks later a nuclear bomb went off destroying half the country...
Wait it wasn't that big of a deal.. The 26th (or there abouts) of August my back had a major UP YOURS moment and I went to bed with the heating pad in ninety degree weather and tried like hell to get it to mellow out.. It had other plans.. And then I thought of something I never should have in that moment, and why I did?? I guess that is just me.. Thinking back, and knowing now what I didn't know then, I should have ridden the heating pad and the ice pack all day and taken my chances the next day.. But I was so sure this wasn't getting better and might not for a day or two that I decided to do a foolish thing and warn Ian's mother that I might (MIGHT I say) not make it down to watch him the next day.. And then the bomb exploded... Didn't see that coming.. Actually that is a lie, I did see that coming and through so many other little situations through the prior months I knew that if something like what did happen were to happen on a grander scale that it would be a massive BLOW UP which did happen.. And shortly after that I remember writing on my other site that I would bet (at that time was the week before labor day) that she would make excuses not to come up for any reason. For Thanksgiving, and now Christmas.. I would have bet any money that she won't be up for the holiday season and last night on her FB she put the entry that will guarantee that I am right ... "Sick again?seriously!!-perfect timing:((((((" ... Perfect timing indeed... Last week we told Donald we saw that that she put on her facebook about being "really sick" and so her not being at the boos performance was very little shock to us..
Why does it feel like we are the outcast in this situation?? Why can't she forgive and forget?? Could she?? We talk about this every once in a while and as the big holiday is just tomorrow we have talked about it more often.. She had gone to Poland a couple years ago and was there through the holiday season and while there we are pretty sure she got her fill and more than likely pissed off at her brothers enough so that every time mom asks about them she says she doesn't talk to them at all.. Free as Skype is she doesn't talk to them, hardly ever if at all.. Why?? More than likely, they, like me, pissed her off enough for her to disown them.. We keep saying that she can't remain pissed off at us forever, can she?? My one word answer is YES.. Yes she can and right now I want it to remain this way.. I could give a shit if she comes for Christmas to be honest, I like having our lives back.. If she would have wanted to get back at us she would have made like nothing happened the day after her brother went back home and we would have been right back where we were.. Walking on eggshells and wondering when the next blowup would be... My back.. Or in the past two weeks, this crappy ass cold which in the first three days were watering eyes and burning sinus fun time.. Now it is the thick goo salt water taffy part of the cold, still not my favorite but the end is near.. If she shows tomorrow we will both be stunned.. Pleasntly surprised, she would be welcomed here.. I want this done and buried and moving on.. Enough already.. I've said this so many times.. How long is long enough..
Anyway I know now that through this past year that without trying very hard at all, I can piss people off.. And I also know that through observing people I know how to piss people off and how to not piss people off.. But I can't for the life of me figure out how to get someone to stop being pissed off at me.. I think she doesn't want to take a chance on "mending fences", afraid she will get to where they and we are family again.. Family should figure out how to be in the same room together.. Mom says she knows Donald is uncomfortable when he is around us, and by us I mean the rest of the family not just us two but the entirety of the rest of the family because Lucy is pissed off at the entire family.. I feel more sorry for her because she can't communicate with us without feeling she can't let her defenses down.. And the same with Donald, it's like he is constantly measuring his response to anything.. This has gotten worse in the past few months and he starts down the "well he's pissed off at me" tract when in fact there is little to nothing there.. The ol mountain out of a mole hill thing.. Everything irons out over time (except for Skootr)... There really is no problem with him coming down here.. All of them, and everyone.. The family as a whole..
The idea of setting that "entry from hell" up to be shown on the 8th of January.. I did and I have gone back and forth on it.. All it really is, or shows is from the time that the immigration turmoil through this blowup, trying to show that of what we have as a whole family have gone through.. I can only write from my side, my own feelings and whatever that did happen in the months prior to and through that six month ordeal through til the August "blowup" through the fallout from that to now.. Nothing horrible.. Just my vision of what happened, and if anyone were to really want to know what it was like it is all still there on my MySpace page.. The immigration stuff is there but not the most recent crap.. So will that remain set to be seen on the 8th?? Right now it isn't.. And I go back and forth with setting it or not setting it.. The 8th might not happen.. Might be sooner might be later.. MIGHT NOT HAPPEN AT ALL.. depends on how tomorrow goes.. The saga that is .. or was...
Badge Henry
Then this year.. How did it all start this year?? Well rather than say it.. The way last year ended wasn't great but it was... alright.. Then shortly into this year everything changed, very much so.. It was an odd thing to hear.. Tabitha was pregnant.. Well that was surely something to celebrate?? and then shortly after that news it became even bigger... TWINS... And then.. Well there was that "funnel" effect as things went from here to there as time moved along and the 11th of August approached.. What was so big about that day?? Nothing really.. Just Jordan getting married..and the twins might be born about then as well..AND EVERYTHING GETS HUGE as things like this happen. Having the babies was big enough.. And on July 20 they were born, then a couple weeks later Jordan gets married.. Then a couple weeks later a nuclear bomb went off destroying half the country...
Wait it wasn't that big of a deal.. The 26th (or there abouts) of August my back had a major UP YOURS moment and I went to bed with the heating pad in ninety degree weather and tried like hell to get it to mellow out.. It had other plans.. And then I thought of something I never should have in that moment, and why I did?? I guess that is just me.. Thinking back, and knowing now what I didn't know then, I should have ridden the heating pad and the ice pack all day and taken my chances the next day.. But I was so sure this wasn't getting better and might not for a day or two that I decided to do a foolish thing and warn Ian's mother that I might (MIGHT I say) not make it down to watch him the next day.. And then the bomb exploded... Didn't see that coming.. Actually that is a lie, I did see that coming and through so many other little situations through the prior months I knew that if something like what did happen were to happen on a grander scale that it would be a massive BLOW UP which did happen.. And shortly after that I remember writing on my other site that I would bet (at that time was the week before labor day) that she would make excuses not to come up for any reason. For Thanksgiving, and now Christmas.. I would have bet any money that she won't be up for the holiday season and last night on her FB she put the entry that will guarantee that I am right ... "Sick again?seriously!!-perfect timing:((((((" ... Perfect timing indeed... Last week we told Donald we saw that that she put on her facebook about being "really sick" and so her not being at the boos performance was very little shock to us..
Why does it feel like we are the outcast in this situation?? Why can't she forgive and forget?? Could she?? We talk about this every once in a while and as the big holiday is just tomorrow we have talked about it more often.. She had gone to Poland a couple years ago and was there through the holiday season and while there we are pretty sure she got her fill and more than likely pissed off at her brothers enough so that every time mom asks about them she says she doesn't talk to them at all.. Free as Skype is she doesn't talk to them, hardly ever if at all.. Why?? More than likely, they, like me, pissed her off enough for her to disown them.. We keep saying that she can't remain pissed off at us forever, can she?? My one word answer is YES.. Yes she can and right now I want it to remain this way.. I could give a shit if she comes for Christmas to be honest, I like having our lives back.. If she would have wanted to get back at us she would have made like nothing happened the day after her brother went back home and we would have been right back where we were.. Walking on eggshells and wondering when the next blowup would be... My back.. Or in the past two weeks, this crappy ass cold which in the first three days were watering eyes and burning sinus fun time.. Now it is the thick goo salt water taffy part of the cold, still not my favorite but the end is near.. If she shows tomorrow we will both be stunned.. Pleasntly surprised, she would be welcomed here.. I want this done and buried and moving on.. Enough already.. I've said this so many times.. How long is long enough..
Anyway I know now that through this past year that without trying very hard at all, I can piss people off.. And I also know that through observing people I know how to piss people off and how to not piss people off.. But I can't for the life of me figure out how to get someone to stop being pissed off at me.. I think she doesn't want to take a chance on "mending fences", afraid she will get to where they and we are family again.. Family should figure out how to be in the same room together.. Mom says she knows Donald is uncomfortable when he is around us, and by us I mean the rest of the family not just us two but the entirety of the rest of the family because Lucy is pissed off at the entire family.. I feel more sorry for her because she can't communicate with us without feeling she can't let her defenses down.. And the same with Donald, it's like he is constantly measuring his response to anything.. This has gotten worse in the past few months and he starts down the "well he's pissed off at me" tract when in fact there is little to nothing there.. The ol mountain out of a mole hill thing.. Everything irons out over time (except for Skootr)... There really is no problem with him coming down here.. All of them, and everyone.. The family as a whole..
The idea of setting that "entry from hell" up to be shown on the 8th of January.. I did and I have gone back and forth on it.. All it really is, or shows is from the time that the immigration turmoil through this blowup, trying to show that of what we have as a whole family have gone through.. I can only write from my side, my own feelings and whatever that did happen in the months prior to and through that six month ordeal through til the August "blowup" through the fallout from that to now.. Nothing horrible.. Just my vision of what happened, and if anyone were to really want to know what it was like it is all still there on my MySpace page.. The immigration stuff is there but not the most recent crap.. So will that remain set to be seen on the 8th?? Right now it isn't.. And I go back and forth with setting it or not setting it.. The 8th might not happen.. Might be sooner might be later.. MIGHT NOT HAPPEN AT ALL.. depends on how tomorrow goes.. The saga that is .. or was...
Badge Henry
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