There is no other time like the holiday time.. Around Thanks giving is when I start to feel the despair that is what the next two holidays provide.. And.. Back when my dad passed away I remember going to the different stores and just being numb and knowing he wouldn't be there that year.. or any other for that matter.. And every year that the last week of October starts and thinking about those last few days were hard.. And still are.. This year we had another loss and it was so strange that I felt almost the same identical feelings as that final week between finding out she had died and then the funeral.. The parallels of the two.. And the feelings of the holidays we have been through and the two hard ones to come.. Christmas was never the same after dad passed away, and now again we all have to endure again as we go through it all again..
I started to watch Holiday movies and stuff like that.. I won't put the trailers up again but just figure it is the same as last year.. Bad Santa, Christmas with the Kranks, A very Murray Christmas and of course Love Actually and with that one, yes I know it is sappy and really nobody else likes it but it is special to me because as I said before it was one of the last if not the very last movies my dad ever rented on disc.. So with every scene that sparks emotion to anyone else sparks that emotion ten fold for me.. Dad if you are watching.. That one is for you, every year... You will always be missed...
Badge Henry..
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